It was wonderful to be with him, but unfortunately when I went back to hold him again this morning, they wouldn't let me. Apparently, right after we left last night he started to really struggle. The nurse was quite worried and called his doctor in while they did an X-ray, expecting that there would be air-pockets and they'd have to insert a catheter in his chest again. Luckily, the x ray still looked good (minus the pneumonia) and he started to calm down shortly after the doctor arrived. This morning they tried turning down his oxygen a notch and he didn't tolerate it well, so they thought it best that we leave him alone for a bit.
They said if he does well today I should try holding him later tonight. I'm so torn because here they are encouraging me to hold him and do skin-to-skin, but at the same time they're telling me how hard it is on him when he's moved in and out of bed. I WANT to hold him but I don't want to bug him if it's going to cause another episode like last night! I just want him to get better and come home, dang it.
Anyway, that's where we're at.
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What a great and yet heart-wrenching experience you are going through. No doubt, it's helping you appreciate him and love him all the more. But also, so hard! I'm glad your girls had a good time visiting with baby brother! You look amazing!
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